Retrain My Brain

I have this friend, we will call her Heidi, who also happens to be my "upline" for my Passion Party and Traveling Vineyard businesses. She is also going through one bitch of a divorce with an ex-husband that is even worse than my estranged husband (I didn't know it was possible, but lo and behold)... She is also a stay-home mom that is making her living through the Passion Parties and Traveling Vineyard, though she is much more successful at it than I am.

She is always telling me that I will only get back what I put out into the world - meaning that if I have a cynical, negative, bitchy view, that is what I will receive back. This is something that I have never really considered before, since I am the Queen of Cynicism and Sarcasm. Of course, I realize the irony of having a blog titled about the karma of returning shopping carts... so obviously, I must put SOME stock into the belief that what comes around goes around (Ratt, anyone?).

I had vowed that today, yes, TODAY, I was going to have this bright, new attitude as I call about a job I don't want, call the unemployment office about extending my benefits, have a phone meeting with my attorney about the RIDICULOUS demands that The Donor is trying to insert into the mediated divorce decree that we have already agreed on, take care of two little ones still in diapers, dispairing over my trucker-belly, frustrated that my businesses are going nowhere and that Mr. Fix-It is gone. Again.

I guess I am not off to a good start.